Life Lesson

It's no secret, I like to be in control.  I like to know what to expect and I hate, hate change.  Some change is good, but I like to have initiated it.  I don't like kind of change that I didn't create by my own decisions, if that makes sense. I suppose it's the fear of the unknown and lack of security that always worries me.

I think it's no coincidence when I have conversations with people or experiences reading things that make me feel differently and ultimately change my perspective.  I suppose I need some lessons in trusting and knowing that I'm really NOT in control, but my Father in Heaven is. Trusting Him, that as I try to do what I know to be right, all will be well with me and my family.

I finished up a book the other day where one of the main characters was dying of cancer.  Their world stopped.  My problems seem super insignificant in comparision.  It made me think why do I hold on to things, why do I get shaken up about things that ultimately don't really matter?  All I need is my family, everything else is temporary. 

So today, I decided:

I will not worry

I will not fret

I will not loose sleep

I will not constantly play the what if game

I will be at peace

I will let go of my emotional attachments to things

Whatever happens will be for my good and benefit

I have to trust that everything will work out

Worrying does not help me.

Now I just need to replay that in my mind at night when I wake up at odd hours :)

Comments

[NaDell]

I have always tried to not worry about things too much, but in the past month, one of my friends had a two year old daughter diagnosed with cancer and has been having the whole treatment at a hospital a few hours away. Suddenly, it just doesn't seem as important that kids didn't clean something up right away. Life is precious.

[Kristin]

I was studying in my BofM manual this morning and it referenced a talk by Elder Hales with this exact sentiment! I found the talk on the church website...so good! You are awesome!! http://lds.org/general-conference/1998/10/healing-soul-and-body?lang=eng